My wife and I are the proud parents of two wonderfully talented, gifted and loving boys who happen to be Autistic. For anyone not familiar with Autism, the condition is a developmental disorder that appears in the first 3 years of life, and affects the brain’s normal development of social and communication skills. There are varying degrees of the disorders which range from low functioning to high functioning abilities (layman terms).
What I would like to share with you today is the spiritual evolution of walking with God once you are aware of Autism being a major part of your life. My wife was the first to notice something wasn’t quite right with our boys. Our boys would have this void look and become easily fixated on various items/subjects. My first reaction of course was denial. I thought they were just being boys and that’s how boys operate.
Once I humbled out and started paying attention to what my wife was saying, than denial turned into concern. The lengthy process of finding a doctor, having our sons officially diagnosed and going through the arduous process of obtaining the proper school support was exhausting.
The next reaction was getting honest with God. I remember asking God why us? Didn’t we do everything right? Why couldn’t we have normal kids like everyone else we knew? Why does this have to be so hard? What are you trying to teach us God? Look, I’m just being honest here. My mind was racing with questions of why and trying to make sense of God’s purpose for it all.
During the course of daycare and early school grades, it has been a marathon of prayer, patience, hopelessness at times, lots of tears and reliance on God and God alone. The one scripture that has held it all together and provided perspective has been 2 Corinthians 12:9“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” We have learned along the way that God loves our children even more than we do. Therefore, we have nothing to fear for God works for the good of those who love him.
Often times the weight of our concerns for our boys has driven my wife and I to our knees asking God for direction, grace and mercy. There will be times in which you are clueless as to what you should pray for; and believe me those times will come. However, God will lead you to Romans 8:26-27 “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.”
Through it all God continues to reveal that He never takes us through a season without adequate clothing for the conditions we face. The season may be Spring when all things are being renewed which represents the renewing of our spirit. The season may be Summer when the environment is hot which may represent the call to persevere. Or, perhaps the season may be Fall when all things are being prepared for Winter which is a time of faith. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen (Hebrew 11:1).
Whatever season you may be in, please know that you are not alone; and the God who gives us children as a gift from God (Psalms 127:3) knew what He was doing all along. Therefore, consider it pure joy for the season you are in, for He counted you worthy of raising and nurturing that which is so precious to Him, our children (Matthew 19:14).
** If anyone would like a special prayer request (Ephesians 6:18) please feel free to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org (your privacy will be respected and honored). I would love to pray for you. I also ask that you think of others whom you can share this message with as well.